going for a short drive to take a camper up to cairns should be a good couple of days give me time away from townsville and to myself will be the first time really that i won't be travelling with an agenda taking a lot of my art things so will see what comes of it or i might just pull up somewhere and read a book for awhile i have to drop the car off at 7am on tuesday then catch a flight home at 755am but will be a good break

It's been a few days now since i have been home and yesterday was the first day that i felt that i am sarting to settle down Thursdays are always one of my best days of the week i have bible study in the morning then art in the afternoon  and thursday night recovery church it gives me a boost for the whole week
the week i spent down in bundaberg wes great as i already said in my last post i have such a wonderful son who is turning into such a gentleman
I can't wait to be able to move to Bundaberg to be nearer to him and share in his growing up in a bit closer so I can be more involved
Mellisa is doing such a good job with him in my absence but i know at time she can do with the time out for her-self
The propects of having a fulfilling job / career is a bit daunting at times as it has been so long since i have had a passion for work but i seem to have a good balance at the moment even if i am still very sort of cash i am so very rich in other area's of my life at the moment that it almost dosn't rate with me all will be provided as required
I guess that's all for now back tomorrow

Just got back from Bundaberg

Had an awesome time with my son for his birthday only got a couple of minutes so i'll just post a couple of photo's

it's a good day
finished my last assignment till i pick more tomorrow
finished the painting i was working on and most of all
tomorrrow i go down to see Johnny
it's been a good couple of days i ran the av at church on sunday it was an interesting experience
i went to home church on saturday night was a good night it brings home to me that no matter how big i think my problems are they don't compare to what is going on in other countries ujenny is working for ywam in perth doing a documentary on the sihk's my thoughts prayers and best wishes go to her as she edit's it

Last night was my graduation from rehab it was a good night Mum was there for me. What it actually changes for me i am still trying to work through but it is the first thing i have finished in a long time.It was good to have a few other poeple there with me like wendy and john and especially bev and col i know they had to be there but i like to think they would have been anyway. What else to write at the moment is hard so i will leave it for now and maybe get back on here later tonight

I can't beleive that it's been a week and a bit since i have updated here things are going pretty good i graduate from rehab on thurs bit of a strange feeling attached with that
I went out to home church at wendy's last saturday good night i enjoy the feeling of people just getting together because they won't to with no church agenda which takes the whole meaning of worship away for me maybe it's just me but we all just won't the same thing from our higher power where we find it is all that matters not mines better than yours because everyone's power is different
i have included a link to two of my favourite songs at the moment i hope people enjoy it I get inspired by it when we sing it at church
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-08YZF87OBQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZfsxydxEXA

I will write again soon

Having a good day no bible study but went to the art gallery and had a look at the portrait comp that has been running some where excellant but others even i could do better then went to recovery chapel always a pretty good night and there is always something to take out of it tomorrow i am at tafe then Saturday I am looking forward to catching up with mum
god bless all good night

It seems i only get back here every few days which is good as a don't normally have a lot to say
I went to a home church on Saturday night which was excellant the singing at the start was o'k as i didn't know the songs but will get used to that the message was delivered by a young man preaching for the first time and his message gave me a few things to think about
I have been wondering what to do once i leave rehab and what field to take my studies in as i am doing both disabilities and community services and i have been praying for some direction part of his message was that just do something as there is plenty to do and the path will be shown to me
It was also great to talk to people with out being asked how my rehab was going and if i was o'k and if i say that i am o'k being asked if i'm sure i'm ok
On sunday i went to my normal sunday service and that was delivered by Capt Bev i love listening to her as she is was ways passionate about what she says and believes what she says
I have been listening to Kari Jobe recently on youtube she has a great voice i will get some of her music soon
Today i did some painting and actually had some focus on what i was trying to achei ve which has been troubling me abit
anyway time to go for now back soon

Been a couple of days since i have been back here trying to get motivated, to finish off some subjects at tafe and to finish off a couple of art projects. Hopefully will get all things together getting close to graduating from the rehab on the 7th oct and then i start a new season. Will most likely be staying in townsville till the new year. i am looking forward to going down to Bundy for Johnny's birthday on the 16th of oct.

face casting

Today had art. Working on face casts and a new concept sort of decided only to go down to see Johnny from the 13th oct to 17th and to go down by train as i can't really afford to do it any other way and will organise Johnny to come up here either before or just after xmas.Spent the rest of my day working on the reception desk of the rehab which was good as i got to spend time concentrating on my assignments

New day, new week, fathers day yesterday which is the end of my winter. Spoke to my father yesterday the second time this year must be a record for recently, Johnny and Mel where at his house miss them both. My son wants to come and visit after his birthday i will be down there for it and he wants to return with me for a week but i have tafe no transport and he can't stay with me me in the house that i am living in as it isn't appropiate then i wondered if he could come down for my graduation but it is to expensive for me to travel there and back there and back spent a lot of wasted sleep time last night trying to work it out so now it is time to hand it over to god to work out and let it happen as it must i think it is best if he comes and stays in the new year.

I have only been painting for a very short while. I have a teacher who mainly just guides me in what i wish to paint and show me different ways to compose my pictures but doesn't say thats not how it's done she just lets it develop as it goes thank you very much Wendy in this and for your spiritual guidance as time goes by I will post more and in different mediums
I have just got back from chapel tonight and it was a very uplifting night and the whole church had an awesome feel to it
god bless everyone who was there

flying to the sun acrylic on canvas 2nd painting i sold

a rose acrylic on canvas the first painting i sold

get out of my headacrylic on canvasmy self portrait

my first atempt of a landscapeacrylic on canvas

acrylic on canvas done from a pencil drawing of a lady i met at the strand

acrylic on canvas 2nd painting i did

acrylic on canvas

Today is a new day woke up refreshed for a change spoke to Johnny and Mellisa last night which was good as I have been missing Johnny a lot lately
I will post some photo's soon of my art and doing art which should be good for a laugh and i will hopefully post again tonight after chapel

Having a pretty ordinary week this week it's been 2 years since i split from my wife and son although still in constant contact it is hard mainly as alot of it was my cause it was also my birthday last sunday and with it being fathers day next sunday it brings up alot of emotion.
I have just disconected my facebook page as it was wasting my time and didn't really provide me with anything useful i still have email addresses of people and will contact them that way and if they return the emails i will stay in touch if they don't then so be it i won't waste my time anymore with people that are not worthy of me or don't find me worthy of a response i will now use this form of staying in touch so more will follow soon
have a good day and we all have choices

O'k found my way back to here
i have had a good week studing and just trying to keep myself focused i am coming up to my birthday but don't feel really excited about it as it is another over. I my of the feeling at the moment that another season is coming to an end not just because winter is ending but also i feel it is time to get my arse in to gear and get back in to life i have taken this year out to reassess my direction and have been putting things on hold it is now time to get on with it
I am missing my son a bit at the moment as fathers day is on the horizon and i have taken myself out of his life to a certain degree this year also.
O'k enough feeling sorry for myself time to get back to the books